My Surgery...

Okay so I have surgery scheduled for Friday to remove my thyroid; about 2 months ago I was diagnosed with Hyperthyroidism caused from Graves Disease. It has taken on it's own life and I am ready to reclaim mine!! I had my labs done yesterday and it wasn't great news. My levels have changed (which is what we are trying to do), but very little if at all. My TSH that we are trying to bring up, went from less than 0.01 to less than 0.06; my T4 went from 2.38 to 2.25 (the high on this test is about 1.75). My ENT didn't order this test I actually ordered it from my ENDO, to see how the meds were working. I did it as a, "hey see you can do surgery." Instead it has turned into, "hey see my meds aren't working; PLEASE do the surgery anyways" :( I'm very frustrated, but hopeful they will still do the surgery, because I think I'm going to loose my mind with all the symptoms. I'm so not myself and for the first time in I think ever Chad is finally routing for the surgery and "wants his wife back". I feel so bad for him and want the light at the end of the tunnel. I've had 10 surgeries counting this one and 8 of them while we've been married. He asked last night..."When is this going to be over". My response is what I want it to be..."After this". Oh please I pray it is, I think I'm ready to learn things in a different way; surgery isn't always the answer :).

I don't want to sound like I'm addicted to surgery (okay family stop laughing); it's just that this has been the most miserable I've felt in a long time if ever. In all the research I've done it says that if you don't respond to the anti-thyroid meds that they get your levels as balanced as they can and just do the surgery. I am crossing my fingers and hoping that after I talk to my ENDO today that I will feel better that the surgery will be a go. I am leaving talking to my ENT till last so that I have all my ducks in a row before I talk to him. He never mentioned a test, so I feel sneaky in not telling him, but I don't rock the boat. Oh curse you THYROID!! I have ROID RAGE, it's just the other kind :). I'll let you know what I find out, keep your fingers crossed, and arms folded!